Life is a flippin' awesome scary roller coaster.

please feel free to skip all the complaining, rambling, boring stuff and just read the boded stuff at the end.
I dislike doctors. Yet I want to be one. Weird right?

I had to go to the eye doctor.....they told me I needed glasses for doing school...

um.....so I got big nerdy ones cuz they are cool. 

But imagine this....it's like walking around in a horror movie, like being drugged....why does everything swim? It's like constantly having a migraine. I don't think I like them. Ew. 

I was coming home from cleaning my families vacation house with my sister.

The weather was not nice. Dang it. I really wanted to go hiking. 

I was driving through my favorite canyon in the whole wide world. 

I want to go hiking. Why can't it stop raining...and being cold....and snowing. Gah. I want to go hiking. 

The roads are okay. It's raining. It's not raining. The weather is so weird sometimes. Welcome to my dwelling place. 

We turn a corner going down a steep, windy road and BAM. It's snowing. It's kinda hard to see. The road is slick. We fish tail from side to side. 

On one side of the road there is a hill coming down with snow banks and big pine trees. On the other side? Well it drops off. Not like a cliff. But it drops off. There is a guard rail. But it doesn't go ALL the way down the road. Uh...Yikes?

We are fish tailing. A truck is coming towards us.  

My sister is saying "Omgosh, omgosh, omgosh, omgosh...." 

I just sitting there....praying in my head...a million thoughts running through my mind in a few seconds. "Whoa. WOW. Oh man. Don't let me die. I don't want to die. I haven't lived yet. I'm so young. NO. You're fine. You're not going to die. Whoa, I could die? No no no. This is happening. STOP IT. You're fine. Yicks."

We spin. BAM. We hit the guard rail. The truck pulls over. It's a truck full of guys. Thank goodness. What would we do without guys?

I laugh. What? I laugh? Yeah. More like a "What just happened?" 

My sister was like, "omgosh" I say. "It's okay. Deep breaths. We're fine."

I roll down my window, they guys in the truck roll down their window and ask if we need help. 

I'm helpless. I know. I'm such an idiot sometimes. I don't even know what street I live on. Pathetic.

But I'm calm. I wave them over. My sister gets out. 

They go to the top of the road and caution cars. How awesome are they?

They tell my sister it's just road rash, and the front light got cracked. See? I knew we'd be okay. 

I'm sitting there saying a prayer. Thanking my Heavenly Father that I'm okay. That we're okay. He's so good to us. Seriously. 

My sister gets back in the car. They help us turn around and get going. I say another prayer. And we carefully drive home. 

Scary thought. Not to far from where we hit the guard rail there was no guard rail. We almost died. Man. He is always looking out for us. 

We start driving home. Seeing the places that we could have gone off and saying, "We are so lucky" We really are. 

One thing you must know. I am insane. I laugh in the face of danger. 

We are driving home and I'm sitting there laughing my guts out. We almost died. I'm laughing so hard. "Hahaha and we spinned! and hit it. It was so crazy! Oh man. I'm pretty sure I'm on adrenalin high. That was so awesome. hahahaha. We almost died. Hahaha!" Wow. What a dork I am. 

I remained calm the whole time. But I won't lie. The thought of getting hit by a car or rolling...or rolling off the edge...the feeling of getting crushed.....*shudders*.....Oh man. He really is always watching over us. I love him. 

Okay so we get home. We're safe. I'm fine. My sister is fine. We almost died, but we're okay. 

Later that night....I went out with some friends of my sisters who didn't get asked to prom and did random things. Like seriously. REALLY REALLY random. It was fun. (minus the headache and throbbing jaw. But remember, I just got new glasses and they have been weird) So I get home late. I'm in pain. Story of my life. 

I slept awful. Why? Because I kept waking up. My head and jaw throbbing. It was like putting on foggy, glasses that make everything huge and blurry and shaky. Then taking them off. Then putting them on again. Ow. Ow. Ow. 

I have high pain tolerance. It didn't hurt. But....it did. 

They next day.....I didn't go to church. I wanted to. But I didn't. My jaw and mouth hurt SO bad. My head was throbbing. Ow. 

There was so much pressure in my head. It was like squeezing every tear out of me. My head was going to fall off of my neck. It was throbbing. Owwww. 

Eventually my mum took me to the Emergency Room just to make sure everything was okay. They put me in this totally awesome neck brace. I mean. Everyone should get one. They are totally going to be the "in" thing in a while. Trust me. 

What do I have? Whiplash. C'mon. Whiplash? *rolls eyes* Dumb. Dumb. Dumb. Apparently when that happens to your neck it causes severe headaches and such. Okay. 

Finals. Need I say more? We have about two weeks left in school........

I just want to quit. I find myself sitting at my desk and every few minutes I just burst out crying....head in my hands.....

Maybe it's the whiplash. It causes headaches and my head hurts like heck. Gah. I can't think. I'm so confused. I read something.....I read it again.....wait.....what did I just read? Then *facepalm* here it goes again.......I don't want to do this. It's like this big weight in my chest.....

I'm so overwhelmed.

Why can't I quit? I want to. I want it to be over.

I don't feel good. I'm so overwhelmed. I am behind in school. *sigh*

Summer will come. It will all be okay.

Life is a roller coaster. 
Sometimes you are soaring high into the sky. It's great! You feel the rush and the thrill of life, you are happy. Everything is going great! Your troubles are behind you. No. Everything is not perfect. It never is. But it's okay. Life is good. You are soaring high. You are embracing it.
^^^these would be the highs of life. 
and sometimes....you are plunging to the ground. What just happened? I swear two seconds ago you were soaring high....but....but now....you're plunging to the ground. It's a rush....it's.. overwhelming? But it's great right? Maybe a little scary? But even though you are plunging to the ground it's great right? Because you know that in a second it will get better and you will be soaring to the sky. 

So if that made remotely any sense....then great. But to sum it up. Life isn't perfect. There are ups and downs. Highs and lows. But no matter what, it will bet better, I promise.

So life is hard right now. But guess what? I love it.

Sorry for rambling and making no sense. My thought don't go well together.....my head hurts *shrugs* oh well.

Be happy. Smile. Be you! Be awesome! Embrace life. Love it.