WORTH IT.

Why hello there human. It's been a while. LIFE IS SO CRAZY!

I have had SO many epiphanies and wonderful experiences and things to share! I have a bunch of things to post. Brace yourselves.

Please allow me to share a random epiphany I had the other day while cleaning someones house (what I have to do to earn some adventuring money. It's WORTH IT).

So life has been really...crazy busy! I had recently had a conversation with my grandma, I told her how busy I was and she responded that it was good to be busy because it kept you off the street and what not. (I would like to add that it also keeps you off the couch). It hit me. I had always thought that being busy was bad, that it's not right to be rushing about life hectically. But it's not good to be sitting on the couch hating life, eating potato chips and frosting either! I realized that they are two kinds of buys,
1) The kind where you are constantly running about, rushing through life, hurrying, constantly racing to the next moment. Life doesn't seem really enjoyable. Maybe you're super busy. You are spending so much time doing things. And maybe you procrastinate on the things that you need to do, and then have to rush to get them done. Does life seem enjoyable? You're not really getting things done (or maybe you are), but do you have time to do other things? The things that you really want? Are you happy? TRULY happy? Not just going about the motions of life.....really LIVING. Being ALIVE? Are you getting the most out of Every. Second. of the day? Not really. You're just going about the motions of life, rushing, you have next to no time, doing things because you have to, you're so busy, but....you're not getting much out of life.
2) The other kind where your life is filled with balance. Of course it's not perfect. (in my opinion, perfect shouldn't be a word because nothing is perfect *rolls eyes*) but there is meaning in your life. You're not just doing things because you have to. You're not just going about motions of life. You are ALIVE. You are truly LIVING. Your life is filled (maybe even busy) with the things you want to be doing, the things that will make you a better person (school, exercise, etc), you have to do hard things but it's WORTH IT. You're busy but HAPPY. Sure, you're not always happy (no one wants to be a barbie or a ken doll. Jus' sayin'), but life is like that, you have ups and downs, but it's all WORTH IT.

Make life meaningful. Make every second count. Take chances. Just do it. Embrace the ups and downs.

When I look back on my life, I want to be able to say, "It was WORTH IT."

I dunno if that made sense. I guess it's kinda hard to put into words the things I think up in my thinker-uper.

I'm trying to be the good kind of busy. Fill my life with meaningful things. Keep busy with good things so that I'm not just wandering around munching on food and wasting time on electronics. I'm trying to fill my time with lots of exercise, time for family, time for learning, time for work, and so much more. Will it be easy? Heck no.

But since I'm starting up summer classes with Williamsburg next week, I don't want my life to be crazy hectic like it was last semester, and I don't want it to fly past and at the end of the day wonder what I did and where all my time went, and I STILL WANT A SUMMER! So I'm doing some serious balancing of my life. It's great. :)