I am

This space feels a bit dusty…it's like something you left on the top shelf of your closet, something that you knew was there but left hidden because it was no longer a part of you, but you just couldn't part with the idea that somehow…it still was. Occasionally you'd pick it up and dust it off and think about what it used to be to you. You would toy with the idea of opening it up again, but then you'd put it away and let it collect dust. 

In a way that's how I feel about this space. Writing has always been an incredible release for me. I've filled countless journals with thoughts, feelings, and ideas and over the years this was a safe space for me to spill the things I was feeling into a jumble of run-on-sentences and really bad grammar. I haven’t used this space in over three years and I feel excited about bringing back something that feels so good to me-to write and share my thoughts with everyone, or no one at all. 

A lot has changed since I last was here. In fact, I’ve been caught in a constant whirlwind of change. I’ve struggled, I’ve felt empowered, I’ve been struck down, I’ve been in the darkest places I’ve ever been, and I’ve explored so many different places and different versions of myself. Throughout all my wanderings, the most powerful lesson I’ve learned over these past few years is that I don’t need to try so hard to Be somebody, to gain the approval of others, to fit in, to find myself. All I really needed to do was just Be. To surrender to the mysteries and magic of the universe.

So, here I am. Basking in the warmth of a brand new, fresh start.

(And please don't scroll any further because the cringe can kill)