"Somewhere along the line, we seem to have confused comfort with happiness."
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- Dean Karnazes
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Quiet by Choice
Hello. Hi. Hey. Hola.
Today, I would like to address the misconception of Quiet vs. Shy.
Am I the only one that doesn't like it when people call you shy? I mean, some people are shy, yes. That's okay! But I am not shy. Quiet sometimes. But not shy. There is a difference.
I dedicate this post to all those like me! haha
Let's consult the dictionary.....
The dictionaries definition of Shy is....
1. Bashful; retiring.
2. Easily frightened away. timid.
3. Suspicious; distrustful.
4. Reluctant; wary.
Yeah. See? I'm not shy.
Now, the dictionaries definition of Quiet......
- Restrained in speech, manner, etc.; saying little
- Free from disturbance or tumult; tranquil; peaceful: a quiet life.
Hah! It all makes sense now, right?
Honestly, I don't mind being quiet. I like listening, I feel like you learn and gain SO much more when you don't talk as much. I feels much more connected to the earth, and myself when I don't talk as much. I like quiet.
The world is SO SO SO noisy!
But let's face it, I'm not shy, just quiet by choice. I'm a super crazy person. But I choose to be quiet sometimes. The world seems so much more peaceful when you're quiet.
Sometimes I am a little shy, but I'm usually not.
I'm done ranting now. :)
Have a beautiful day! Life is good. :)
love, Wesleigh
Today, I would like to address the misconception of Quiet vs. Shy.
Am I the only one that doesn't like it when people call you shy? I mean, some people are shy, yes. That's okay! But I am not shy. Quiet sometimes. But not shy. There is a difference.
I dedicate this post to all those like me! haha
Let's consult the dictionary.....
The dictionaries definition of Shy is....
1. Bashful; retiring.
2. Easily frightened away. timid.
3. Suspicious; distrustful.
4. Reluctant; wary.
Yeah. See? I'm not shy.
Now, the dictionaries definition of Quiet......
- Restrained in speech, manner, etc.; saying little
- Free from disturbance or tumult; tranquil; peaceful: a quiet life.
Hah! It all makes sense now, right?
Honestly, I don't mind being quiet. I like listening, I feel like you learn and gain SO much more when you don't talk as much. I feels much more connected to the earth, and myself when I don't talk as much. I like quiet.
The world is SO SO SO noisy!
But let's face it, I'm not shy, just quiet by choice. I'm a super crazy person. But I choose to be quiet sometimes. The world seems so much more peaceful when you're quiet.
Sometimes I am a little shy, but I'm usually not.
I'm done ranting now. :)
Have a beautiful day! Life is good. :)
love, Wesleigh
"I'm so happy yet so sad! It's like a perfect storm of emotion."
^That is me right now. I'm just so happy! Yet so sad......it's like a perfect storm of emotion. It balances everything out.
I'm so sad because life really sucks sometimes. I fail at everything, I'm so behind in school. I got hit by the homework truck from hell and fell into the ocean of never ending homework and now I'm drowning! Heeeelp. I want a job, but my parents won't let me. it's a rather confusing situation I have so many dreams, and goals but I feel like I'll never achieve them, I don't know how, and it's oh so conflicting. and I reaaaally just want a piece of bread! But I can't have it, and it's so depressing. *munches cucumbers* and I really want to go adventuring and stuff and.... *sigh*
But then.....
I'M SO HAPPY! AH! Life is just so beautiful and wonderful, and so happy, and I'm just soooo so blessed. I have such good friends and family and I love them to death. And my school is so amazing even though it is so freakin' hard and I think I might die, I love it. Life is so good! I love it. :)
So many feels right now.
So life is freakin' hard, ya know? But then it's so good, and I'm so blessed. There is always more good than bad in your/my life.(:
I worry if I'll ever achieve my goals/life long dreams blah blah. But ya know what? The things we want never come easy or free to us, we have to work for them! If we work our butts off and try our absolute hardest to achieve them, then we'll be even more grateful for them!
Honestly, when was the last time I tried my absolute hardest to achieve something brilliantly amazing? I have no idea. But it's gonna happen.
"The worst things in life come free to us." It's so true. But why not be grateful for our trials, our challenges, the things that totally suck in life? Because really, the make us so much better! They make us stronger and braver. They make us who we are.
But guess what! The best things in life also come free to us. That's our family, and our friends, etc. Man, we're just so blessed. I challenge you to write down 5 wonderful things in your life, that came free to you. I bet you could name even more.
Life is so good(: Shoot for the stars! Stay positive! Love a lot! Dream lots! and don't forget to smile. :)
love, Wesleigh :)
How much do you want it?
That's a question I've been asking myself a lot lately. How much do I want it? Am I willing to do what it takes?
Education has always been really important to me. I've always known that, and I've always said that. But have I acted on that? Eh, probably not.
I can honestly say that I've worked REALLY hard on my school. But, more so in the last-minute-procrastination kind of way. Not the dedicated-on-top-of-things way.
If my education is so important to me, why don't I act like it's important to me?
Am I willing to put aside the distractions of social medias and sacrifice the less important things like movies, books for the most important?
Guys, school starts in less than three weeks and I still have to finish up my summer courses. Yikes.
I am bouncing between excited and utterly freaked out. Excited because I love to learn and I go to the best school on the planet. No debate. Freaked out because I am easily distracted and un-dedicated.
So, I making a commitment to myself. As school is starting, I will put aside my distractions. I will be dedicated. I am wiling to do what it takes. Because I want it that bad.
I'm so stressed out for school and it hasn't even began. Oh man. The stress of balancing out my education, work, trying to make a difference in the world, exercising, spending time with friends and family, my religion, adventure. *takes a deep breath*
How I am going to do it, I don't know. All I can do is put a smile on my face, work as hard as I can and trust in the Lord and he will help me make it through. :)
I chose this path. Am I going to stay on it? I'm going to work my butt off to stay on this path. Nothing can stand in my way.
What do you want? How much do you want it? Are you willing to do what it takes to get it?
You are capable of achieving your dreams, you wants. You are. You are stronger that you know. Don't ever doubt it.
You may or may not believe in God. But I do, and I'm telling you, that he will help you. Sure he throws trials at you, but if you just trust in him, it'll be for the best.
Together we can all make our lives the best. The only person holding us back is ourselves.
I wish you the best in everything! Whatever you are facing, I know you can do it. :) Put a smile on and just embrace the ups and the downs. :)
Thank you for reading! :)
love Wesleigh
I'm a book drunkard.
^^^My life^^^
I sometimes wonder if I should even be ALLOWED to read books....?? Like seriously though.
I have such a vivid imagination that books become my life. I jump into the pages of a book. (have you ever read Inkheart? Man. If that were real.....*swoon*) I mistake happenings in the books I read for real life happenings. I'm like....did I?....Nah...I am such a confused person. Moving on.
I'm also a really picky reader. REALLY picky reader. Or maybe I just have book hangovers? Probably that. It takes me a couple months to find a new book and then get sucked into the pages.
Hey you. Look at this quote, "Some books should be tasted, some devoured, but only a few should be digested thoroughly." (Mo from Inkheart) AMEN. Yeah. I love that.
Okay but anyways. I really love books. Like a lot.
When I was younger I had piles of books that I was "going-to-read" but really I just liked saying I was going to read them. Instead I would pull out the science books and get lost in the wonder of our world. My desk is currently covered in books that I want to read. Man. My list of books never ends does it? If I didn't have to work or go to school and I could survive on books or get payed to read book, than WHOA, I would. :)
But man, books are so good for you! Ya know when you sit around watching tv all day (not that I or anyone else has ever done that). It's like "Hey. I just cut my life in half by watching this show, and then that guy died....and why did I watch this?? and my brain just fried, I think I'm going to go eat some potato chips."
But when you read a book!! Your brain is getting bigger and stronger and you're prolonging your life! You feel alive! Like you have actually been doing something, rather than staring at a screen watching images flash by. You are absorbing the words, and devouring the book. Like food for your brain. ^_^
There is this quote, by some person named L.M. Montgomery,
"I am simply a book drunkard. Books have the same irresistible temptation that liquor has for its devotee. I cannot withstand them."
I'm a book drunkard.
And just because we all could add some more books to our to-read-list, here are my favorite books! (I'm pretty sure you've read them, or heard of them, because they are rather popular books)
- Inkheart - Cornelia Funke (the whole series is so captivating. My favorite is the third.)
- Harry Potter - J.K. Rowing. (I'm a utter Potterhead. Goodness. Those books.)
- The Hunger Games! - Suzanne Collins (Such. Good. Books.)
- The Kite Runner - Khaled Hosseini (This is such an amazing book. I was in tears)
- A Million Miles in a Thousand Years - Donald Miller (SUCH a life changing book)
- Percy Jackon - Rick Riordan (and any other Rick Riordan books. So good!)
- Fablehaven - Brandon Mull
- The City of Ember - Jeanne DuPRAU (the whole series is super good)
- The Maze Runner - James Dashner
Anyways. I really like those books. But I don't only read fantasy. Trust me. I have such a long list of books I want to read, maybe when I'm old and sippin' prune juice I'll read them.
What are your favorite books? I'm always looking for good books to read. I'd love to hear! :)
<3/ Wes
wan·der·lust
[won-der-luhst]
noun
a strong, innate desire to rove or travel about.
^^^That's my new favorite word. It describes me perfectly.
I may have mentioned in previous posts about my longing to travel, to not just travel and see the world from the window of a car, to not just walk through stuffy museums, to not just take pictures with scenic backgrounds, to not just look at animals through a glass window, to not just go on a drive up the mountains, but to truly EXPERIENCE the world.
^^^That's my new favorite word. It describes me perfectly.
I may have mentioned in previous posts about my longing to travel, to not just travel and see the world from the window of a car, to not just walk through stuffy museums, to not just take pictures with scenic backgrounds, to not just look at animals through a glass window, to not just go on a drive up the mountains, but to truly EXPERIENCE the world.
To climb the highest mountains.
To watch many sunsets.
To surf in the cold waters of the ocean.
To swim with the creatures of the sea.
To swing in the trees with monkey's.
To stare in the face of a lion.
To soar off the highest cliffs.
To climb rocks.
To take on walks on the beach.
To make new friends.
To wander in the streets of ancient cities.
To walk through the halls of the castles of kings.
To fall through the sky.
To sleep under the stars.
To gaze up at the tallest trees.
The explore in cold caves.
To change someones life.
To dance with children.
To be in two places at once.
To swim under waterfalls.
To hike to great places.
To feel the wind on my face.
To explore that scenic background.
To get lost.
To wander.
I could go on for forever. I don't want to just see the world, I want to experience it. I need to.
This past week I watched fireworks explode above me, while laying on a cliff.
I watched lightning explode in the sky around me, the wind blowing on my face, raindrops falling on my hands, while sitting on top of a cliff.
Discovered petroglyphs and imagined what it would be like to be and Indian. Got chills to know that I was standing where an Indian warrior once stood.
July snowball fights in the desert.
Drove through the deserts where the pioneers once trekked through.
All that and so much more.
It was amazing. It felt good. Like that hungry beast inside of me was released. :)
In this world where every thing seems to cost an arm and a leg, it seems like the wildest dream to want to experience it all. But there is a way; To make the most out of what you have now.
This weekend when saying nightly prayers with my family, my uncle said, "Thank you for all the things that give us purpose and meaning in our lives."
It hit me hard. Because no matter what, there is always purpose in your life, it's there. There is always meaningful things in your life. All you have to do is make it grow.
Take what God gave you. Times that by 50. Make the most out of everything that he has given you.
I have places to see. People to meet. Mountains to climb. I'm struck with wanderlust. My adventures await me.
Life is good.
Good things, good times, good life
I'm just SO GRATEFUL. Grateful for everything. We have to have hard times, otherwise, the good times wouldn't be so great. I think our trials in fact make our life better. Because we learn so much from them and appreciate all the good in life so much more.
I think perfect should not be a word. Honestly, nothing is perfect. I'm sure not. Always strive to be your best, not perfect. What would life be if we were all perfect? Our flaws make us who we are. You are flawsome.
Life is pretty great. Regardless of my imperfect body, life, whatever.
I'm kinda, not so great at posting, and when I do, it's lamesauce. Anyhow.
Ladies and gents: my life as of late.........
Naked Juice....gosh. Love the stuff.
MY CACTUS BLOOMED! I've had Fredricko for about 5 years! *is proud* and I opened my window one day to see this weird green, hard, oval lump growing out of my cactus! I watched it over the next week bloom into this beautiful, as big as the cactus flower! I'm sad I didn't snap a lot of pictures of it, especially when it was HUGE. dang it. #Foreveralonewithmyplants
Elevation.....I can't stop thinking about it. I wear my elevation E1 band every day, to remind me to be awesome, and to live a meaningful life. xD Just a few random pictures. (NOTE: I did not take these pictures, credit goes to Sanneke, Elevation, and whoever else. Thanks for not being lazy like me and actually taking pictures! I'm also on my laptop so I don't have all my pictures with everyone. dang it.)
CINNAMON ROLL HUG!! Man. I love these guys!!
(Left to Right) Me, I look ridiculous *eye roll*, my brotha from anotha motha, good friend/twin, and I'm his body guard. hah. Love these guys xD
Faking the HAKA! haha We're so cool. I love this girl. :)
The girls of Pod1 and our awesome pod leader, Heather. :) I was so lucky to end up in a pod with some of my besties. :)
Yeah, that's me. Yeah, I look ridiculous. Hah. Yeah, that stuff under my eyes....it's sharpie......yeah...it gave me a near migraine. But it was worth it. xD
This picture....is interesting and awkward. Hah. I competed in the Williamsburger (which is like a triathlon, but instead of biking, you do climbing and single rope ascension.). I REALLY did not want to do it. But I did, and everyone signed me for support. :D I came in third. Second in running. First in climbing. First in ascension. (36 SECONDS!!) annnd I didn't finish the swim.....I'm getting swimming lessons. Yup. Anywho. I'm soooo happy with third. xD
Home sweet Home. My canyon. My Home. :) I love this place SO much. :)))))))
Exploring...I never knew that island (where the picture was taken) was there....and I'd driven past it how many times?? CRAAAZY. And it's full of buffalo and little red baby buffalo and it's gorgeous. :D I love the earth.
Hiking. <3333 This has gotta be one of my favorite hikes. It's so beautiful.
I also see this lovely creature on that hike. Every time. hah.
(it's a rattlesnake, in case you didn't know)
How I feel when having to do something....Kinda. hah. This makes me laugh xD
Summer sunsets. *smile*
My lake! (This was taken out of the car, thus the bad quality.) I love this place so much! Sometimes it's as if it were glass, some times it's a deep ocean blue, and most times, it's a beautiful aqua color. My favorite. Can't wait to go splash in it this weekend and throughout the summer! Yay, whoot! xD
Photo album for my missionary brother! It's taken me about a year to get it done! (life is just too crazy and busy, it's quite pathetic though) Well, it's ALMOST done. :) I have such a love/hate relationship with designing. hah. Here's just a little sneak peak!
Imagine Dragons. I love them so much. I especially love that some of them are Mormon. I love that it's awesome, good music. xD This is my favorite, it's just so...happy(:
Anyways. That's my life lately. Great, isn't it? I just think life is great no matter what. xD I've been doing cross country, and I'm going to start up tennis again, and I'm DYING to go climbing, every second of every day. The weather is SO nice. A little hot. But nice and sunny.
Last night at around 11 pm I ran outside to lay on the grass and watch the lighting light up the sky and the thunder shake the ground. The air smelt of rain and a few small drops landed on my face. The trees were blowing. Leaves blew across the road. Storms are one of my favorite things. I love 'em. *smile* I love the earth, so very much.
On that lovely note, watch this....
Always remember, you are infinite. Anything is possible. Life is good. No. Matter. What. You are loved. Embrace life. All of it. Smile. Be happy. Be you. :)
WORTH IT.
Why hello there human. It's been a while. LIFE IS SO CRAZY!
I have had SO many epiphanies and wonderful experiences and things to share! I have a bunch of things to post. Brace yourselves.
Please allow me to share a random epiphany I had the other day while cleaning someones house (what I have to do to earn some adventuring money. It's WORTH IT).
So life has been really...crazy busy! I had recently had a conversation with my grandma, I told her how busy I was and she responded that it was good to be busy because it kept you off the street and what not. (I would like to add that it also keeps you off the couch). It hit me. I had always thought that being busy was bad, that it's not right to be rushing about life hectically. But it's not good to be sitting on the couch hating life, eating potato chips and frosting either! I realized that they are two kinds of buys,
1) The kind where you are constantly running about, rushing through life, hurrying, constantly racing to the next moment. Life doesn't seem really enjoyable. Maybe you're super busy. You are spending so much time doing things. And maybe you procrastinate on the things that you need to do, and then have to rush to get them done. Does life seem enjoyable? You're not really getting things done (or maybe you are), but do you have time to do other things? The things that you really want? Are you happy? TRULY happy? Not just going about the motions of life.....really LIVING. Being ALIVE? Are you getting the most out of Every. Second. of the day? Not really. You're just going about the motions of life, rushing, you have next to no time, doing things because you have to, you're so busy, but....you're not getting much out of life.
2) The other kind where your life is filled with balance. Of course it's not perfect. (in my opinion, perfect shouldn't be a word because nothing is perfect *rolls eyes*) but there is meaning in your life. You're not just doing things because you have to. You're not just going about motions of life. You are ALIVE. You are truly LIVING. Your life is filled (maybe even busy) with the things you want to be doing, the things that will make you a better person (school, exercise, etc), you have to do hard things but it's WORTH IT. You're busy but HAPPY. Sure, you're not always happy (no one wants to be a barbie or a ken doll. Jus' sayin'), but life is like that, you have ups and downs, but it's all WORTH IT.
Make life meaningful. Make every second count. Take chances. Just do it. Embrace the ups and downs.
When I look back on my life, I want to be able to say, "It was WORTH IT."
I dunno if that made sense. I guess it's kinda hard to put into words the things I think up in my thinker-uper.
I'm trying to be the good kind of busy. Fill my life with meaningful things. Keep busy with good things so that I'm not just wandering around munching on food and wasting time on electronics. I'm trying to fill my time with lots of exercise, time for family, time for learning, time for work, and so much more. Will it be easy? Heck no.
But since I'm starting up summer classes with Williamsburg next week, I don't want my life to be crazy hectic like it was last semester, and I don't want it to fly past and at the end of the day wonder what I did and where all my time went, and I STILL WANT A SUMMER! So I'm doing some serious balancing of my life. It's great. :)
I have had SO many epiphanies and wonderful experiences and things to share! I have a bunch of things to post. Brace yourselves.
Please allow me to share a random epiphany I had the other day while cleaning someones house (what I have to do to earn some adventuring money. It's WORTH IT).
So life has been really...crazy busy! I had recently had a conversation with my grandma, I told her how busy I was and she responded that it was good to be busy because it kept you off the street and what not. (I would like to add that it also keeps you off the couch). It hit me. I had always thought that being busy was bad, that it's not right to be rushing about life hectically. But it's not good to be sitting on the couch hating life, eating potato chips and frosting either! I realized that they are two kinds of buys,
1) The kind where you are constantly running about, rushing through life, hurrying, constantly racing to the next moment. Life doesn't seem really enjoyable. Maybe you're super busy. You are spending so much time doing things. And maybe you procrastinate on the things that you need to do, and then have to rush to get them done. Does life seem enjoyable? You're not really getting things done (or maybe you are), but do you have time to do other things? The things that you really want? Are you happy? TRULY happy? Not just going about the motions of life.....really LIVING. Being ALIVE? Are you getting the most out of Every. Second. of the day? Not really. You're just going about the motions of life, rushing, you have next to no time, doing things because you have to, you're so busy, but....you're not getting much out of life.
2) The other kind where your life is filled with balance. Of course it's not perfect. (in my opinion, perfect shouldn't be a word because nothing is perfect *rolls eyes*) but there is meaning in your life. You're not just doing things because you have to. You're not just going about motions of life. You are ALIVE. You are truly LIVING. Your life is filled (maybe even busy) with the things you want to be doing, the things that will make you a better person (school, exercise, etc), you have to do hard things but it's WORTH IT. You're busy but HAPPY. Sure, you're not always happy (no one wants to be a barbie or a ken doll. Jus' sayin'), but life is like that, you have ups and downs, but it's all WORTH IT.
Make life meaningful. Make every second count. Take chances. Just do it. Embrace the ups and downs.
When I look back on my life, I want to be able to say, "It was WORTH IT."
I dunno if that made sense. I guess it's kinda hard to put into words the things I think up in my thinker-uper.
I'm trying to be the good kind of busy. Fill my life with meaningful things. Keep busy with good things so that I'm not just wandering around munching on food and wasting time on electronics. I'm trying to fill my time with lots of exercise, time for family, time for learning, time for work, and so much more. Will it be easy? Heck no.
But since I'm starting up summer classes with Williamsburg next week, I don't want my life to be crazy hectic like it was last semester, and I don't want it to fly past and at the end of the day wonder what I did and where all my time went, and I STILL WANT A SUMMER! So I'm doing some serious balancing of my life. It's great. :)
Just Be Yourself :)
I can't believe that I'm finally just realizing this. Just be yourself. That's all that really matters.
I'm going to try to put into words a major epiphany I had, it's gonna be hard. This might not make sense, so brace yourselves.
Just. Be. Yourself. Three simple words that can shape your lives.
At elevation last week (an amazing leadership camp I went to that I will post about later) we learned about walls. In our lives we put up walls, and wear masks to hide an insecurity or something. They asked us to share our the walls we put up and the masks we wear. I'm going to share that right now. When they asked it I really had no idea what mine where, but then it hit me; I change my personality and wear "masks" to hide who I really am because I'm afraid that people won't accept me for who I am or don't like me. Basically, I'm never really my true self.
Elevation was really eye opening. You can't wear makeup, and your hair is always a mess. But, no one was judging you for that, no one cared. You could be yourself, and they accepted you for it.
For so long I have put up walls, worn masks, and hidden who I am. Tried to be somebody else, because, I thought that I would be accepted if I was what the world called "normal."
As humans we look at other humans, particularly those who have more than us, those who are popular, socially accepted, or famous, etc and think, "they have an iPad and I don't.....they're skinny.....they've been to Hawaii......they have more Facebook friends than I......their hair always seems so perfect......" and it goes on and on and on.
We strive to be socially accepted. We want to be "normal."
For most of my life I've wanted so badly to be "normal." I'm homeschooled, I'm a mormon and so many other things. For so long I hated everything about that. I tried to hide it. Cover it up. Tried to be normal. I hid my true self because I just wanted to be "normal." I wanted to be accepted. I just wanted to be like everyone else. Me wasn't like everyone one else....it was....well me.
WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! Why try to fit in when I was born to stand out?
Hi. My name is Wesleigh Elizabeth Smith. I have blue eyes, brown curly hair. I'm not a super model. I'm just me. I'm homschooled. But at least I wasn't stuck in a smelly school for 8 hours a day. I'm a mormon. Without it I don't know where I'd be. I don't live in a mansion. I have cows, and sometimes I have to milk them. I'm kinda weird. Or maybe I'm just me. I was born a daughter of God. I was born me.
Me is not based on what is socially accepted or "normal." Me is based on who I am.
There are like seven billion people in the world. Can you imagine.....how utterly boring it would be if we were all the same? Um yuck.
I've spent my life hiding who I am. Trying to be someone else. Not anymore.
I've spent it wanting to be like someone else. Not anymore. I want to be me.
Guys. I don't know who is reading this. But if you get anything out of this. I just want to tell you this....
Just be yourself. Do you know how awesome you are? You were born to be YOU. You were born to stand out because everyone is unique. You are infinite. You were created by a heavenly being. You didn't evolve from apes. Wow. You have a life ahead of you. Don't waste it faking your way through life. Be an original. You is all you need to be. You don't need to be someone else. You don't need to be accepted. Who cares what people think. You're not weird. You're just you. Don't hide yourself from others, you're awesome, give them a chance to get to know how awesome you are. Just. Be. Yourself.
^^this is my favorite book. Seriously^^
I Like Myself
by: Karen Beumount
"I like myself. I'm glad I'm me.There's no one else I'd rather be. I like my eyes, my ears, my nose. I like my fingers and my toes.I like me wild. I like me tame. I like me different and the same. I like me fast. I like me slow. I like me everywhere I go. I like me on the inside, too, for all I think and say and do. Inside, outside, upside down, from head to toe and all around, I like it all! It all is me! And me is all I want to be. And I don't care in any ways what someone else may think or say. I may be called a silly nut or crazy cuckoo bird-so what? I'm having too much fun, you see, for anything to bother me!Even when I look a mess, I still don't like me any less, 'cause nothing in this world you know, can change what's deep inside, and so...No matter if they stop and stare...no person. ever. anywhere. can make me feel that what they see is all there really is to me. I'd still like me with fleas or warts, or with a silly snout that snorts, or knobby knees or hippo hips or purple polka-dotted lips, or beaver breath or stinky toes or horns protruding from my nose, or- yikes!-with spikes all down my spine, or hair that's like a porcupine. I still would be the same, you see. I like myself because I'm ME!"That is my favorite book. I got it when I was like.....7-ish? I have it memorized. I would read it pretty much everyday......it's always by my bed and I read it a lot.
It has pretty much been my motto in life. *smile* My motto that I haven't stuck to.
At elevation we had solo time. You're all alone in nature for four hours. I came to realize that when away from all the worldly things, and such, you really connect with your center. The core of who you are. Aside from basing your wants and who you are off others and stuff, you come to realize what it is that you really want it life and who you really are. It's amazing.
I've made it a goal to get away from the stress of life, away from others, and all the hogwash and just connect with myself. Discover who I really am and what I really want. I encourage you to do the same. It's amazing what you'll learn about yourself.
After such a long time of denying who I am, I'm finally discovering myself. It's pretty great.(:
Always remember to be yourself! Love yourself. Love life. Make every second count. Be happy. *smile*
I love you all! Thanks for reading. :D
Life. Is. So. Dang. Good.
I haven't been so great at posting.....but um....here's my life as of late! :D
1. I'M OUT OF SCHOOOOL!!! I have very mixed feeling about this. I'm excited to have my life back. buuuuut....I'm not sure what my life exactly is......I'm going to find that out. Right now I'm just spending time cleaning, working, learning, and enjoying the outdoors. It's great :)
3. School is out....which means my Social Leadership class is over. Oh man. Dang it. I love that class so much. Monday was a hard day. This sounds so pathetic, but I just kept crying, pathetic. I just love it so much. It's been life changing. Love love love love love. Bring it baaaack. If you haven't taken it, take it. It's amazing. No words can describe how much I'm going to miss it and everyone in it.
4. Decisions......dah. Gah. Blah. Why are they so hard? I'm one of those who would just rather avoid them altogether....yeah. Meh.
1. I'M OUT OF SCHOOOOL!!! I have very mixed feeling about this. I'm excited to have my life back. buuuuut....I'm not sure what my life exactly is......I'm going to find that out. Right now I'm just spending time cleaning, working, learning, and enjoying the outdoors. It's great :)
^^I LOVE sunshine. I just can't get enough of it. ^^
2. This is what finals looked like.............
^^studying my heart out in my nerdy glasses. Gosh I'm such a dork :P Water, that stuffs liquid gold ;)^^
^^^Gluten free chexs. Gotta love that stuff.^^^
^^Ice cream. I think I might have a problem. *cough* No I wasn't eating out of the carton.....alone ;)^^
^^late nights. (note: this isn't late) Just imagine that it actually says 12, 1:30, 3 or 4 (cuz that's reality people).....welcome to finals week! *cough*
Also, I would just like to let you know, that when you wake up at before 5 am to memorize study guides, you can answer study guide questions in your sleep. T-r-u-t-h.
^^click on this to go see my Social Leadership Project!^^
4. Decisions......dah. Gah. Blah. Why are they so hard? I'm one of those who would just rather avoid them altogether....yeah. Meh.
5. This Earth! asdfaskldjfsafkajsldfasfdjlaskjdflkasj I just cant' get enough of it!!!!! It's. SO. Be-A-utiful. Now that I'm out of school, I have so much time to spend outside sucking in this earth. And it's spring, which is great :D
^^hiking!!! Can't wait to hike lots and lots this summer *happiness*^^^
^^Lilacs!! They are coming out!! Um, they are like one of my favorites smells ever, and I love to suck their nectar....yeah. :P^^
^^I just can't get enough of them. Okay? Okay. XD^^
^^see that white stuff in the back? That's snow........yeah. I woke up this morning, looked out the window, and bam, my heart sunk. WHAT HAPPENED TO SPRING!!?!? But. Luckily it melted and was a beautiful, wickedly windy day.^^^^^
^^This is just beautiful. I was riding my bike past, and I just had to stop (: ^^^
Annnnnnd I'm stopping now. Gettin' just a wee bit carried away there :P
6. This video totally makes my life. My mentors are awesome. Need I say more? :D
7. This song. Oh man. My friend Sanneke introduced me to Balmorhea and I. Am. In. Love. This song got me through finals. It's great :D
8. PANDAS!!!!!!!!! <333333333333333333333333333333333333
When finals got overwhelming I would google baby pandas and drool (exaggerating there) over their ADORABLE FLUFFINESS!!!!!!!! *dies*
^^^*warm fuzzies* IT'S JUST SO FLUFFY I'M GONNA DIE!!!!!^^
9. Go check this out. Amazing huh? It just blows my mind! This earth. This universe. LIFE!! Dah. It's. SOOOOOO. AMAZING! :)
10. SUUUUMMMMERRRR!!! (technically not yet. but. I'm out of school and so I consider it summer. anywho) And this my friends.......this is all I have to say. :)
^^My adventures await!!!! (: ^^
Hopefully I didn't bore ya......or make ya die of awesomeness! hah (: Anyways.
Your adventures await too!! Get out there!! Smile! Embrace life! Be happy! Love life! Be you!!
And Life is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good!! I am just so blessed! Gah. It's amazing. <3
That is all :) I'm outta here to go sleep adventuring!!!
From my Llama to you.
It's finals week. Blah. I can do it. So can you. You've got this! XD
(technically it's a llamacorn, but yeah)
Because I'm crazy enough to know I can.
Today I was siting in seminary and wondering to myself if I will ever have an iPhone in my high school years......and then I was like......"I'm a sophomore, I've got time."
And then it hit me. OMGOSH I'M A SOPHOMORE! Where has the time gone?? I swear....just yesterday I was ten years old riding my bike as fast as I could all over the neighborhood......where?.....Where did that go???
(you can imagine me sitting at my desk in seminary staring at the floor while my head was freaking out....kinda like this StudioC video. Anyways)
And then it hit me again and I thought, "You know Wes, you tell yourself you're going to do all these things when you graduate from high school.....but......you say all the time now, I'll do it next week, tomorrow, later.....bleh blah blah, so....what says you're going to do them when you graduate?"
and then I just wanted to start crying at my desk.....in seminary because WHAT IF I NEVER MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE??!?!? That would be such a SAD SAD SAD thing.
But guess what.......If you have a dream, you've gotta go for it. NOW. Not later. Go for it NOW.
I've always been such a big dreamer. And I have....really....really big dreams. Which.....makes them kinda hard to achieve....but...life is hard right? And nothing is easy, and we learn from accomplishing hard things.....but.....it's still hard.....and I'm only 15.....and I can't drive....which make it even harder....
A quote.....
"Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to LIVE in the world that they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.
Impossible is NOT a fact. It's and opinion.
Impossible is NOT a declaration. It's a dare.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary.
Impossible is NOTHING."
^^^that is my favorite quote of all time. Truth.^^^
So, nothing is impossible. Sure it may be hard. But NOTHING is impossible.
Now is the time when I obnoxiously quote quotes......ehem.
"Don't settle: Don't finish crappy books. If you don't like the menu, leave the restaurant. If you're not on the right path, get off it." - Chris Brogan "The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be." -Ralph Waldo Emerson "Believe you can and you're halfway there." -Theodore Roosevelt "Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it." "Those who move forward with a happy spirit will find that things always work out." -Gordon B. Hinckley "If it's meant to be, it will be" "Do it today or regret it tomorrow." "Every pro was once an amateur. Every expert was once a beginner. So DREAM BIG. And start NOW." "Life begins at the END of your comfort zone." "It's kind of fun to do the impossible." -Walt Disney "Dream as if you will live forever, live as if you will die today." -James Dean "You must do the thing that you think you cannot do." -Eleanor Roosevelt "The difference between who you are and who you want to be is what you do." "All your dreams can come true if you have the courage to pursue them." -Walt Disney
I am stopping now before I blow up this blog up with so much awesomeness. (too bad cuz I have SO many more quotes.)
Anywho. Now you should watch this.
Life is SO beautiful and precious. We don't realize just how amazing and beautiful it really is. It's right before our eyes. It's ours to make and bend and shape into the life we truly want. It's right there. Get off the computer, get your head out of the book, buck up, just do it, make it happen. Your life might just be wasting away. You might simply just be living. Change that. Don't simply just live. Be somebody. Live a meaningful life. Do something. DREAM BIG. Start NOW. You'll never know what you are capable and what you could make of this life unless you start somewhere, and that somewhere is now.
You are capable of so much. You don't even know, you never will know just how much you are capable of. So you must take risks. You must let your heart lead you. Don't be afraid. You'll never know unless you try.
Just love. Love your dreams. Love yourself. Love life. Be happy. Smile. Be grateful.
Don't be normal. Don't get lost in the crowds of confusion; of people just trying to fit in, just trying to be "normal". No. Don't do that.
Do you know how awesome you are? God created you. You are ONE in 7 billion. You are YOU. Be unique. Be yourself. Stand out. Don't fit in. Unleash your true potential. You are something amazing. God created you, that in itself is a lot. You are a child of God and that is infinite.
Live life as if you were to die today. It's a scary thought...but you could die today. I've had the realization many times. I don't want to die and go to heaven and have God ask me, "So, what did you do?" and be like..."Well..um....I...um" Talk about embarrassing Yeah. You never know what is in the future. What will happen. No one can predict that, only God.
He has planned this amazing life for you. It's yours for the taking. Become who God created you to be.
Make EVERY DAY count. Don't forget to live.
I'm going to make every day count by doing something meaningful every day. I'm going to be happy. I'm going to smile lots. I'm going to take more risks. I'm going to try new things. I'm going to love life even more. I'm going to end my life knowing that I did something, no matter how big or small. I've banned the "tomorrow, later, not now." from my vocabulary. I'm going to make my dreams come true, because I'm crazy enough tothink know I can. Who's with me? :)
And then it hit me. OMGOSH I'M A SOPHOMORE! Where has the time gone?? I swear....just yesterday I was ten years old riding my bike as fast as I could all over the neighborhood......where?.....Where did that go???
(you can imagine me sitting at my desk in seminary staring at the floor while my head was freaking out....kinda like this StudioC video. Anyways)
And then it hit me again and I thought, "You know Wes, you tell yourself you're going to do all these things when you graduate from high school.....but......you say all the time now, I'll do it next week, tomorrow, later.....bleh blah blah, so....what says you're going to do them when you graduate?"
and then I just wanted to start crying at my desk.....in seminary because WHAT IF I NEVER MAKE MY DREAMS COME TRUE??!?!? That would be such a SAD SAD SAD thing.
But guess what.......If you have a dream, you've gotta go for it. NOW. Not later. Go for it NOW.
I've always been such a big dreamer. And I have....really....really big dreams. Which.....makes them kinda hard to achieve....but...life is hard right? And nothing is easy, and we learn from accomplishing hard things.....but.....it's still hard.....and I'm only 15.....and I can't drive....which make it even harder....
A quote.....
"Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to LIVE in the world that they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it.
Impossible is NOT a fact. It's and opinion.
Impossible is NOT a declaration. It's a dare.
Impossible is potential.
Impossible is temporary.
Impossible is NOTHING."
^^^that is my favorite quote of all time. Truth.^^^
So, nothing is impossible. Sure it may be hard. But NOTHING is impossible.
Now is the time when I obnoxiously quote quotes......ehem.
"Don't settle: Don't finish crappy books. If you don't like the menu, leave the restaurant. If you're not on the right path, get off it." - Chris Brogan "The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be." -Ralph Waldo Emerson "Believe you can and you're halfway there." -Theodore Roosevelt "Decide that you want it more than you are afraid of it." "Those who move forward with a happy spirit will find that things always work out." -Gordon B. Hinckley "If it's meant to be, it will be" "Do it today or regret it tomorrow." "Every pro was once an amateur. Every expert was once a beginner. So DREAM BIG. And start NOW." "Life begins at the END of your comfort zone." "It's kind of fun to do the impossible." -Walt Disney "Dream as if you will live forever, live as if you will die today." -James Dean "You must do the thing that you think you cannot do." -Eleanor Roosevelt "The difference between who you are and who you want to be is what you do." "All your dreams can come true if you have the courage to pursue them." -Walt Disney
I am stopping now before I blow up this blog up with so much awesomeness. (too bad cuz I have SO many more quotes.)
Anywho. Now you should watch this.
Life is SO beautiful and precious. We don't realize just how amazing and beautiful it really is. It's right before our eyes. It's ours to make and bend and shape into the life we truly want. It's right there. Get off the computer, get your head out of the book, buck up, just do it, make it happen. Your life might just be wasting away. You might simply just be living. Change that. Don't simply just live. Be somebody. Live a meaningful life. Do something. DREAM BIG. Start NOW. You'll never know what you are capable and what you could make of this life unless you start somewhere, and that somewhere is now.
You are capable of so much. You don't even know, you never will know just how much you are capable of. So you must take risks. You must let your heart lead you. Don't be afraid. You'll never know unless you try.
Just love. Love your dreams. Love yourself. Love life. Be happy. Smile. Be grateful.
Don't be normal. Don't get lost in the crowds of confusion; of people just trying to fit in, just trying to be "normal". No. Don't do that.
Do you know how awesome you are? God created you. You are ONE in 7 billion. You are YOU. Be unique. Be yourself. Stand out. Don't fit in. Unleash your true potential. You are something amazing. God created you, that in itself is a lot. You are a child of God and that is infinite.
Live life as if you were to die today. It's a scary thought...but you could die today. I've had the realization many times. I don't want to die and go to heaven and have God ask me, "So, what did you do?" and be like..."Well..um....I...um" Talk about embarrassing Yeah. You never know what is in the future. What will happen. No one can predict that, only God.
He has planned this amazing life for you. It's yours for the taking. Become who God created you to be.
Make EVERY DAY count. Don't forget to live.
I'm going to make every day count by doing something meaningful every day. I'm going to be happy. I'm going to smile lots. I'm going to take more risks. I'm going to try new things. I'm going to love life even more. I'm going to end my life knowing that I did something, no matter how big or small. I've banned the "tomorrow, later, not now." from my vocabulary. I'm going to make my dreams come true, because I'm crazy enough to
Life is a flippin' awesome scary roller coaster.
please feel free to skip all the complaining, rambling, boring stuff and just read the boded stuff at the end.
I dislike doctors. Yet I want to be one. Weird right?
I dislike doctors. Yet I want to be one. Weird right?
I had to go to the eye doctor.....they told me I needed glasses for doing school...
um.....so I got big nerdy ones cuz they are cool.
But imagine this....it's like walking around in a horror movie, like being drugged....why does everything swim? It's like constantly having a migraine. I don't think I like them. Ew.
I was coming home from cleaning my families vacation house with my sister.
The weather was not nice. Dang it. I really wanted to go hiking.
I was driving through my favorite canyon in the whole wide world.
I want to go hiking. Why can't it stop raining...and being cold....and snowing. Gah. I want to go hiking.
The roads are okay. It's raining. It's not raining. The weather is so weird sometimes. Welcome to my dwelling place.
We turn a corner going down a steep, windy road and BAM. It's snowing. It's kinda hard to see. The road is slick. We fish tail from side to side.
On one side of the road there is a hill coming down with snow banks and big pine trees. On the other side? Well it drops off. Not like a cliff. But it drops off. There is a guard rail. But it doesn't go ALL the way down the road. Uh...Yikes?
We are fish tailing. A truck is coming towards us.
My sister is saying "Omgosh, omgosh, omgosh, omgosh...."
I just sitting there....praying in my head...a million thoughts running through my mind in a few seconds. "Whoa. WOW. Oh man. Don't let me die. I don't want to die. I haven't lived yet. I'm so young. NO. You're fine. You're not going to die. Whoa, I could die? No no no. This is happening. STOP IT. You're fine. Yicks."
We spin. BAM. We hit the guard rail. The truck pulls over. It's a truck full of guys. Thank goodness. What would we do without guys?
I laugh. What? I laugh? Yeah. More like a "What just happened?"
My sister was like, "omgosh" I say. "It's okay. Deep breaths. We're fine."
I roll down my window, they guys in the truck roll down their window and ask if we need help.
I'm helpless. I know. I'm such an idiot sometimes. I don't even know what street I live on. Pathetic.
But I'm calm. I wave them over. My sister gets out.
They go to the top of the road and caution cars. How awesome are they?
They tell my sister it's just road rash, and the front light got cracked. See? I knew we'd be okay.
I'm sitting there saying a prayer. Thanking my Heavenly Father that I'm okay. That we're okay. He's so good to us. Seriously.
My sister gets back in the car. They help us turn around and get going. I say another prayer. And we carefully drive home.
Scary thought. Not to far from where we hit the guard rail there was no guard rail. We almost died. Man. He is always looking out for us.
We start driving home. Seeing the places that we could have gone off and saying, "We are so lucky" We really are.
One thing you must know. I am insane. I laugh in the face of danger.
We are driving home and I'm sitting there laughing my guts out. We almost died. I'm laughing so hard. "Hahaha and we spinned! and hit it. It was so crazy! Oh man. I'm pretty sure I'm on adrenalin high. That was so awesome. hahahaha. We almost died. Hahaha!" Wow. What a dork I am.
I remained calm the whole time. But I won't lie. The thought of getting hit by a car or rolling...or rolling off the edge...the feeling of getting crushed.....*shudders*.....Oh man. He really is always watching over us. I love him.
Okay so we get home. We're safe. I'm fine. My sister is fine. We almost died, but we're okay.
Later that night....I went out with some friends of my sisters who didn't get asked to prom and did random things. Like seriously. REALLY REALLY random. It was fun. (minus the headache and throbbing jaw. But remember, I just got new glasses and they have been weird) So I get home late. I'm in pain. Story of my life.
I slept awful. Why? Because I kept waking up. My head and jaw throbbing. It was like putting on foggy, glasses that make everything huge and blurry and shaky. Then taking them off. Then putting them on again. Ow. Ow. Ow.
I have high pain tolerance. It didn't hurt. But....it did.
They next day.....I didn't go to church. I wanted to. But I didn't. My jaw and mouth hurt SO bad. My head was throbbing. Ow.
There was so much pressure in my head. It was like squeezing every tear out of me. My head was going to fall off of my neck. It was throbbing. Owwww.
Eventually my mum took me to the Emergency Room just to make sure everything was okay. They put me in this totally awesome neck brace. I mean. Everyone should get one. They are totally going to be the "in" thing in a while. Trust me.
What do I have? Whiplash. C'mon. Whiplash? *rolls eyes* Dumb. Dumb. Dumb. Apparently when that happens to your neck it causes severe headaches and such. Okay.
Finals. Need I say more? We have about two weeks left in school........
I just want to quit. I find myself sitting at my desk and every few minutes I just burst out crying....head in my hands.....
Maybe it's the whiplash. It causes headaches and my head hurts like heck. Gah. I can't think. I'm so confused. I read something.....I read it again.....wait.....what did I just read? Then *facepalm* here it goes again.......I don't want to do this. It's like this big weight in my chest.....
I'm so overwhelmed.
Why can't I quit? I want to. I want it to be over.
I don't feel good. I'm so overwhelmed. I am behind in school. *sigh*
Summer will come. It will all be okay.
Life is a roller coaster.
Sometimes you are soaring high into the sky. It's great! You feel the rush and the thrill of life, you are happy. Everything is going great! Your troubles are behind you. No. Everything is not perfect. It never is. But it's okay. Life is good. You are soaring high. You are embracing it.
^^^these would be the highs of life.
and sometimes....you are plunging to the ground. What just happened? I swear two seconds ago you were soaring high....but....but now....you're plunging to the ground. It's a rush....it's.. overwhelming? But it's great right? Maybe a little scary? But even though you are plunging to the ground it's great right? Because you know that in a second it will get better and you will be soaring to the sky.
So if that made remotely any sense....then great. But to sum it up. Life isn't perfect. There are ups and downs. Highs and lows. But no matter what, it will bet better, I promise.
So life is hard right now. But guess what? I love it.
Sorry for rambling and making no sense. My thought don't go well together.....my head hurts *shrugs* oh well.
Be happy. Smile. Be you! Be awesome! Embrace life. Love it.
I just want to quit. I find myself sitting at my desk and every few minutes I just burst out crying....head in my hands.....
Maybe it's the whiplash. It causes headaches and my head hurts like heck. Gah. I can't think. I'm so confused. I read something.....I read it again.....wait.....what did I just read? Then *facepalm* here it goes again.......I don't want to do this. It's like this big weight in my chest.....
I'm so overwhelmed.
Why can't I quit? I want to. I want it to be over.
I don't feel good. I'm so overwhelmed. I am behind in school. *sigh*
Summer will come. It will all be okay.
Life is a roller coaster.
Sometimes you are soaring high into the sky. It's great! You feel the rush and the thrill of life, you are happy. Everything is going great! Your troubles are behind you. No. Everything is not perfect. It never is. But it's okay. Life is good. You are soaring high. You are embracing it.
^^^these would be the highs of life.
and sometimes....you are plunging to the ground. What just happened? I swear two seconds ago you were soaring high....but....but now....you're plunging to the ground. It's a rush....it's.. overwhelming? But it's great right? Maybe a little scary? But even though you are plunging to the ground it's great right? Because you know that in a second it will get better and you will be soaring to the sky.
So if that made remotely any sense....then great. But to sum it up. Life isn't perfect. There are ups and downs. Highs and lows. But no matter what, it will bet better, I promise.
So life is hard right now. But guess what? I love it.
Sorry for rambling and making no sense. My thought don't go well together.....my head hurts *shrugs* oh well.
Be happy. Smile. Be you! Be awesome! Embrace life. Love it.
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